Ooh, I did the unspeakable today and learned a big lesson! Feeling fantabulous this morning, like the little girl with only time forever and ever, doing whatever feels good until it isn't interesting any more. I went about my still super sensitive cleansing existence, noticing how connected I felt (without emotional involvement) to everything around me: how I was amazingly like the red cotton dress I slid on, how I bounced buoyantly like the ribbons I tied, how deeply alike I was to the music I lifted voice to (again, all without caring).

Here's where tightrope got wiggly: so pleased with timing that I could make my best Michigan girlfriend, Jennifer's, wedding today and how momentous it felt to be in the company of hundred of guests all wanting to make conversation, in the center of a royal reception banquet, in the embrace of so many alive and celebratory people (quite a difference from the reclusive cleansing state I have been in for the previous 5 days) that I needed to ground just to be present. On a normal diet, I may not have even noticed. But normal is certainly not where I was.

A sip of the toasting champagne. Literally 2 cherrie tomatoes, four cucumber slices, and two pepper slices. 10 candied almonds and 2 packs sugarless gum. That's what it took for me to be there today. I am not proud nor ashamed of the deviation. I just want to learn the lessons it has to teach. And they are these: you do not deviate from a fast with refined sugar or chemicals for the system is sensitive and painful indigestion is assured (sorry, bod!). As well, if sugar and chemicals are that invasive during a cleanse, (I'm talking immediate anarchy, people), then they are invasive always, may I not return to the "normal" diet which does not notice. Finally, I realized that cleansing is an extreme state we utilize to speed up detoxification, recovery and growth, but true health lies in what we consistently do afterwards - the diet, the rest, the exercise, the self-expression we can maintain day to day. And if it has to be "not ideal" (a difficult one for me) in order to be maintainable, well "not ideal" is then just might be healthier over the long run.

Do everything you can do consistently, and continually implement gentle improvements.

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