It's a rock. It's a big rock hangin out in the sky that I have imbued with such strong symbolism that I feel something for it. I feel a connection with it.

When I say "full" with regards to this rock, I do not mean gas tank wine glass or the way your momma felt 20 minutes before she went into labor kinda full, though those are certainly a few of the symbols I would choose to imbue. No, when I say "full" with regards to this rock, I mean like when sunlight hits that naked surface and from this particular position on Earth, I can see half of the sphere lit up like the end of a neath death tunnel. And from here I can see there isn't much to it. It's a rock. Such mystery in simplicity.

Children function in Alpha brain waves almost exclusively until they are 9 or so, brain waves adults achieve through meditation, trance, creativity, falling asleep, or lucid dreaming. The child can not choose a brain wave pattern they haven't developed yet, so please don't dismiss imaginary friends. But I, the developed adult functioning waking hours mostly in productive Beta, have the choice to slow down. I can consciously, with practice, literally decelerate to Alpha and see this
path worn by deer, narrow and low, stand out against the ground (I follow),
fish making sounds in the lake over the hill, another insect wife wails (I listen),
songs being softly sung over the water by a voice sparkling with emotion (mine) -
eyes adjusting,
brain waves slowing,
vision shaping according to the light reflected off a
big rock hangin out in the sky.

Cleansing is like taking off your clothes - from the inside. In seven days I slept 60 hours, lost 7 lbs, and reduced overall inflammation dramatically. I wrote 33 pages in my journal, blogged 7 entries online, and had at least one fully lucid dream every nite. I doubted, I persisted, I yielded, I hoped, I thought I was going to crack for 2 entire days. But the layers came off and I saw myself naked, devoid of all the identities I create. I am bones I am tendons, I am blood I am brain waves, I am empty and clean and simple.

And when I say "full" with regards to how I feel now, I mean like the warm April moon, full of mystery.

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